Wednesday, November 13, 2013


Gus and Greta turned one on Sunday! My mom was in town for a few days, but had to leave on Saturday so we celebrated their birthday on Friday evening with pizza, beer and cupcakes. I will admit that it was not the twins' finest moment - you will notice them looking pissed off and/or confused in all the pictures, but maybe they knew it was not their actual birthday? At any rate, it is a huge milestone for me and Eric - we know from experience that things get exponentially more fun in the next few months. It's starting already!

Greta is a little pointing machine. She walks around with her index finger at her side, like a gun in a holster, ready to whip it out anytime she sees something interesting. Gus is the entertainer - modeling hats, stacking blocks and throwing balls, and making crazy noises just to get a reaction out of us. He laughs all the time. Greta is more discerning in her humor, which just makes us all the more ridiculous when trying to get her to crack.

I have told my friends that my life feels a little bit like the movie Groundhog Day. I have 3 kids; I have been a parent since 2008, but have only ever celebrated first birthdays. I am SO excited to embark on the next stage of toddlerhood - hearing them talk, introducing new adventures, new foods, watching them explore, taking them places... I'm ready for the tantrums and the struggles too. I just want to graduate. I think I should have an honorary Ph.D. in babies. (Note to self: add new degree to resume.) 

Anyway, here are some pictures of our celebration, and also some photos we took on their actual birthday. We went for a long walk to a park in our old neighborhood that we used to take Seamus to. It has gotten a makeover and is super toddler-friendly. The kids had a blast and so did we. 

Party hats were busted out.

Gus hates our singing.

Greta is not impressed either.

Cupcakes? Meh. 

Presents, however, are delicious!

Greta during a rare moment of belly laughs.

Gus looking super Irish.


Sweet Greta.

I want to send a shout out to everyone who has reached out over the last few weeks - both to remember Seamus and to celebrate the twins' birthday. Dad and Hassie were out of the country but provided a box that entertained the twins for weeks before we opened it and discovered toys that were even more interesting than the box! We love hearing from everyone.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Three Years

Tonight we lit a bunch of candles and told Gus and Greta about their big brother as we were giving them their bedtime bottles. When they finished their milk, we wrapped them in blankets and took them outside to try to see if we could get a glimpse at the moon. Alas, this is Portland so naturally it was cloudy, but since they didn't really know what our purpose was they were not disappointed. We read them "I Am a Bunny," put them both in some snuggly hand-me-down PJ's from Seamus, and kissed them goodnight. Now the house is quiet and Eric and I are about to enjoy some winter beers and a homemade dinner. As far as tradition goes, this feels pretty good, and like the kind of ritual we can all look forward to once a year.

We were so lucky to have my mom here for the last few days. Eric and I got to spend the whole day together yesterday - including brunch, a movie and some birthday shopping for Gus and Greta. We also had a little birthday party for the twins yesterday evening (more on that later). I've been thinking so much about Seamus lately - remembering his laugh, his sweet running-start hugs, and the way he powered through every minute of his 22 months on this earth.

We also learned this week that Seamus' transplant recipients are both doing well. The little girl who received his liver is absolutely thriving. His heart recipient has had a rough couple of years, and actually required another heart transplant in 2011. As tough as it is to learn that Seamus heart is no longer beating, we still are tremendously comforted by the fact that it gave this little girl a second chance at life, and we will always wish her and her family well. Her third heart appears to be doing the job, and last we heard she was taking dance lessons.

Thanks to everyone who has reached out this week. It's really amazing to hear from so many people who are still thinking about Seamus and sending love. We feel every bit of it.